14th November 2010 - BE STILL

Bulan realised she has been lazy. She has not written and that is not good for her. Procrastination is her middle name she always says as an excuse, trying to sound funny, but hell it is corny. Over the past few days, she has made the trip in her 12 year old car to Meringit to pick Coolgarlie up. Big Man was left by his girlfrien Curly Hair and he is brewing in his own cauldron right now. Poor thing.

Big Man dan Bulan had a chat. It was heartbreaking for Bulan to see her first born so devastated. She hates to preach, but what needed to be said, must be said. He said, I just don't want to hurt so bad. I can handle being alone, without a girlfriend, but I wish I can stop hurting.
Bulan said, We feel the pain because we are alive. If we are dead, we are in spirit form, there won't be anymore pain. So first, be thankful for the pain. Next, in a few weeks or months from now, you will look back and thank your lucky stars that all these has happened to you. Pain always precedes change for the better. Just like when a baby is about to be born, into a bigger world from the confines of the wound, it will need to cry its lungs out first. You may not believe me now but one day you will know that what your mother says is true.
Finally, you need to learn detachment. Because nothing is stagnant. Everything changes. The only constant in life is change. Even I don't own you or any of your siblings. I didn't own your dad, nor did he own me. We all belong to Him. He just loaned you to me, as a responsibility, so I do all I can to raise you. Even now, I can't control you anymore. See, you have grown, so has Curly Hair. She was in your life because she had a task to settle with you, likewise you were in hers for the same reason. Your tasks are done for the time being, you need to move on. Know that..be still, be the stillness and everything else revolve around you..what you need will come to you like a magnet, and what you don't will be removed from you. Just be still...
With that, Bulan walked out of Big Man's room.